Cult Of Horrors – Let The Truth Be Known.

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Pre-warning: this isn’t one of those light hearted blog posts but something that I feel I should share so that others are aware. (did not mean to make that awful rhyme.. ;))

Anyway, a few days ago, a video was released about The Cult of Horrors. Many of my family shared it on Facebook and so I watched it. I knew something of it. I knew my family had been in a church that was difficult to get out of, but that was the height of it. It is seriously so much more than this. This cult is the Christian Assembly International. Many years ago when my family lived in an army base in Germany, there was a man who claimed that he was sent by God to spread the gospel and to start a church. My uncle was the first man that he converted. My family (including my own parents) spent years and years in this church where the pastor physically abused, sexually abused, spiritually abused, mentally abused and wanted money and power. Even children were abused. Horrific thought, really. My parents were in this church for 9 years and luckily then got out whereas many others from my family were in it for another 10 years! Its difficult for me to explain but in the transcript it says:

“He is a self-styled evangelist who told his followers he was The Anointed One, chosen by God to convert the world to his beliefs.

Anyone who didn’t follow his word was told they would burn in hell, that he held the key to their salvation on judgement day.

In reality, Scott Williams was a cult leader who used his own brand of religion to warp biblical scripture in the pursuit of sex, money and power.

Scott Williams left Australia 38 years ago, converting hundreds of young people throughout Europe. On the outside, life appeared happy. But now, former cult members reveal to Four Corners a lifetime of secretive abuse, misplaced worship and horrifying punishments carried out under the guise of obedience to ‘The Overseer’, Scott Williams. Their stories are so shocking, their brainwashing so profound, it is almost unbelievable. As one former member explained:

“It’s not simple to walk out. No. I wish I could. I tried. I tried a few times. It’s a curious web and it was like he’s the spider and he’s got you there and you can’t get out of the bloody spider web.” ”

Although its a difficult topic, I recommend you watch the video. This is still going on.. and I really hope and pray that the investigation will help others to be free. A few of my family members are featured in the video. My uncle being one of the main speakers. I am so so proud of him for being brave enough and strong enough to share his experiences so that others can be saved from going through something similar.

Video:

http://www.abc.net.au/4corners/stories/2014/07/28/4052971.htm

Little Note To Say..

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Hey everyone,
Just a little note to say that I will be blogging everyday (hopefully!) For the rest of my Summer holidays. Reason being Is that I have been having ideas of blog posts and I hate waiting for a while before I post the next one ;) but when the holidays are over it will be difficult to post everyday because I am in my last year of High School so its a lot of work. Fear not! I will still be blogging. Just not everyday! Oh my, its 6 days until exam results… I am so nervous. I found the exams really hard if I’m honest and I wish I was like my brother and could study 24/7. Although I actually love stidying, I do have to be in the mood for it and know what I’m doing so hopefully I studied enough to at least pass the ones I’m less confident in. I’m confident for German and Art which I got an A for German in the Prelim and a B for Art. So that was good! Then I got a C in Modern Studies and RMPS which i wanted to get up to a B in the exam but I’m not sure I wrote enough so I don’t know about that and then English I failed. English, Maths and me just dont go well. Hence why I’m questioning dropping Maths if I don’t do well in Higher RMPS and just retake it and then get an A because I’ll know most of the material already. Anyway, I’m babbling but you can see I have a lot to think about. I will tell you my results when I get them!
Have a wonderful day!:)

From my heart to yours

journeythroughlife15:

Ah ha! I love this. It did make me laugh!(in a good way;))

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dear future husband, husband letterI told myself that I would never write you a letter.

Certainly not publicly.

But then again, I also told myself I’d be married with three kids by now and obviously that’s not working out that well for me. ;)

Of course, I would rather much talk to you over some ice-cream as we watch a sunset on the beach, or at the peak of a mountain that we hiked, or over coffee at a local coffee shop, but for now it will just have to be over a computer screen.

I’m not sure who you are or what is going on in your life right now but there is one thing I am certain of: you are one prayed for man.

You have been on my parents, my grandparents, and my teens prayer list for many years now.

I’m not sure if they are praying for you specifically or…

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Stay Close To Me (Original Song)

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I know… I know… how very unlike me to blog twice in one day. Remember in my previous blog post where I ended it because I need to do homework? Yea, that didn’t happen. Instead I have been working on my new original song called Stay Close To Me. The process of writing, editing, recording, uploading and more editing does take the majority of the day away. I love it though. Don’t worry, I still have an hour before heading to bed so I’m sure I can get some reading done before then! Anyway, I really want to share my new song with you. I wrote this from inspiration from Soul Survivor. I don’t actually share many of my own songs because I never feel like there finished or I feel like I don’t understand what I’m trying to explain in my lyrics so I don’t share it but this one, I really like. It isn’t perfect and I may edit it and what not in the future but this is what I have just now:

Verses 1,2 & 3:

If I ever loose my way
love won’t let me slip away
stay close to me

Cos you could love me more now
than anyone else can
stay close to me

Catch me when I fall 
be my shadow when I walk
stay close to me

chorus (X2) :
I never wanna be far
Holy Spirit come
I never wanna be far
write your story on my heart 

Instrumental 

Verses 1,2 & 3:
If I ever loose my way
love won’t let me slip away
stay close to me

Cos you could love me more now
than anyone else can
stay close to me

Catch me when I fall 
be my shadow when I walk
stay close to me

chorus (X2) :
I never wanna be far
Holy Spirit come
I never wanna be far
write your story on my heart 

Instrumental 

Bridge (X4) :
God, your the only good in me
Let the world look like you 

chorus (X2) :
I never wanna be far
Holy Spirit come
I never wanna be far
write your story on my heart 

Instrumental

Inspiration/Travelling Wall & Strawberry Picking.

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This Summer I made a Bucket List. Not a life bucket list but a summer bucket list. I will share more on this in another blog post but one of my ‘things to do this summer’ was to make an Inspiration Wall. If you know me, have been reading my blog for a while or have spent around ten minutes with me you’ll know that I also love to travel and I fantasize about travelling the world everyday. So, I changed my ‘Inspiration Wall’ into my Inspiration/Travelling Wall. It makes sense to me. However, today I am going to share the quotes that I collected for my wall. I actually got really creative with scrapbook paper (Thanks Peta! ;) <3 ) and travelling magazines. So now my wall looks something like this: 

Inspiration wall (Sorry about the quality but you get the idea)

A lot of these quotes are from two books. Believe You Can by John Mason and Kissed The Girls and Made Them Cry by Lisa Bevere. These are both excellent books, I recommend them! 

So here they are:

‘God plants no yearning in the human soul that he does not have a plan to satisfy.’

 ‘You’re like a tea bag: You won’t know your own strength until you’ve been through some hot water.’

‘A smile is a gift you can give everyday.’

At night, give all your worries and fears to God. He’s going to be up all night anyway.’ 

‘People would worry less about what others think about them if they only realized how seldom they do. They’re usually not thinking about you but wondering what you’re thinking about them.’

‘Love someone who doesn’t deserve it.’

‘There is a beautiful and divine connection between love and music. They expand and reveal each other.’

‘The prince calls her altogether lovely.’

”No one can be loved by a prince and keep it a secret.’

‘God is the ultimate musician. His music transforms your life. The notes of redemption rearrange your heart and restore your life. His songs of forgiveness, grace, reconciliation, truth, hope, sovereignty, and love give you back your humanity and restore your identity.’ – Paul Tripp

Of course, there are reason behind why I picked these particular quotes but I’m not going to go into detail. They are just encouraging and my wall looks pretty wonderful.

Also, yesterday was one of my friends 20th birthday. We spent the day strawberry picking, making pancakes, eating pizza and laughing A LOT. Here are some pictures:

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Now, I should stop writing and do some homework. yup! I have to read a German book and practice for Music. Oh and Maths homework but I’m totally waiting until my brother is home from Germany so he can help me because lets face it, Maths is not my thing. He studies Maths (Along side other subjects) at University.. why? I do not know. Its handy for me though I guess haha!  Have a lovely day!

This Is Amazing Grace (Cover)

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Hey guys! 
While I was at Soul Survivor I bought a song book which has loads of songs that have been played in the past. This is one of my favorite songs just now. I hope you enjoy my cover of it! Advice is always appreciated :) 

 

Soul Survivor 2014 – God is amazing!

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Chances are, you have probably arrived here after reading my last blog post about Soul Survivor. The light hearted, funny stories that came out the week. There are also some more serious and amazing stories that I’m going to share with you.

Again, I don’t know where to start.

During the week God was doing some amazing stuff. If you haven’t seen it before, it can be a little strange. Like, when people pray and stuff happens. Some might cry, shake, laugh, fall over. Its the Holy Spirit filling them. There are a few funny stories that I actually just have to share. One of the people in our youth group laughs when he is filled with the holy spirit. I don’t mean a quite giggle, I mean more of a howling laugh and it was absolutely hilarious. The sermon started and he just kept going. The whole room erupted in laughter, I’m not exaggerating. But as the week went on, we got used to it. There was someone else who was still standing at the front when the sermon was happening and he was standing there, hands in the air, dancing and praising Jesus. Again, we got used to it but it was really funny. Joking aside, I always got so happy for people when they were filled with the Holy Spirit. It was so good to watch and to pray for more.

I had never had an experience like this before Soul Survivor. Then, on the second last night, Mike was talking about pain and hurt. Two things that I really did go to Soul Survivor praying about. So I went for prayer. Nothing happened. I stood there getting kind of bored if I’m honest and the lady who was praying for me whispered in my ear ‘your so closed up, why is that?’ I replied ‘I.. I don’t know.’ she asked me to hold my hands out in front of me, to receive Jesus. My hands starting feeling tingly and I was crying. My tears were coming from deep, deep, deep down and thats how I new it was Jesus. It was like I was crying out everything and I couldn’t stop. I can’t even describe it but I had never cried like that before. I was finding it hard to breath as well. I actually thought I’d need to take my inhaler haha! But it felt soo good and when I went back to my seat my friend came over and I just hugged him for ages. Crying, still crying and then a different friend came and I hugged her and him for ages. Everything got a bit emotional at times! I loved being there for my friends too.

Seeing my best friend being filled with the Holy Spirit was the most amazing thing ever. We were praying for our friends ankle which was extremely painful (God healed it! whoop whoop!) and as she was praying she just started laughing. Like randomly laughing, really really loud. I couldn’t stop smiling because I knew this was how Jesus filled her with the Holy Spirit. So I prayed for her and I prayed for more and I couldn’t stop smiling. You have no idea! After a while, we gave her time by herself and I could see her with her arms stretched wide, tears rolling down her face, praising Jesus. I went back to my friend and he and I just danced and sang at the top of our lungs. I ran and him because I was so happy for her and so happy that the Holy Spirit filled her with such joy.

Man! I don’t even know if any of that made any sense what so ever! But, God did some amazing things at Soul Survivor. Loads of people were also healed. Oh and on the first night, Mike said: ‘I think God is saying that there is someone in here who seriously thought about committing suicide a few days ago and He knew you were coming here and wants to heal you.’
Wow. Some one at the back raised their hand and she was prayed for. How amazing is that though?! 

I could go on and on… So I shall stop now. I can not wait for next year!! :)

 

When hard times come

journeythroughlife15:

I love this.

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hope, trust JesusSometimes life is like the weather: unpredictable.

You wake up expecting sunshine but what you get is rain.

You expect the healing to come… but the illness rages on.

You expect the job offer… and instead get the rejection call.

You expect the relationship to work out… but instead you get a good-bye

You expect a baby… but all you get is one more test that failed.

And just like that your faith starts to falter and you start wondering if there is a reason to hope at all.

To hope for different results, to pray for sun when all you see is clouds, and to believe that your miracle will come.

I don’t know how many moments like these I’ve had in my life.

I feel rejected by people, stuck in my circumstance, and forgotten by God.

It is during these moments when the skies darken and the rain…

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Soul Survivor 2014!

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I’ve been sitting here for a while trying to figure out how to start this blog post. Attempting to compact a week of camping, worshiping, phone disasters, seminars, friends, a ceilidh and much more into one post is going to be a challenge but here we go….

Wait. Before you start reading, I suggest you grab yourself a cup of tea or coffee. Your going to be here a while. Especially since there is another post to follow.

This time last week we were at Soul Survivor Scotland. It all began by the job and half that putting up tents always is. We had an amazing lady who cooks the best food in the universe join us too to cook for us and laugh with us. I honestly don’t think the week would have been as good if we didn’t have delicious food ;) we are all so thankful for that! Each day was filled with two main meetings, seminars, a cafe, tool shed (stuff to buy!) and sports. There was also an open mic afternoon, celluloid (movies), late night worship and hanging out at the camp site. I went to the late night worship a couple of times which I really enjoyed! Some of us took our long boards but the skate park wasn’t big enough to cruise but we took two guitars so I spent a lot of time playing and singing which was fun :) The main meetings were by far my favorite. I loved the balance of worship and hearing from Gods word. Gathering with everyone and praying for others was awesome.

I’m finding this all very difficult to put into one blog post….

The seminars that I went to were Praying For People So That Stuff Happens, The Problem Of Pain, Growing In The Wilderness, The Transformation Of A Nation, Has Science Disproved Christianity?, and Naturally Supernatural. I didn’t take notes for all of them (sadly) but I might share some with you in a different blog post.

I’m not going to lie, by the end of the week I was pretty tired so, stupidly, I made myself comfortable in the ‘Has Science Disproved Christianity?’ seminar and dozed off a couple of times. My friend had to hit me on the head to I’d waken up. My other friend literally fell asleep for the whole seminar. I remember hearing a lot that I’d learned in RMPS though so its ok! It was pretty funny though because a few of my other friends were finding it hard to stay awake too. Not because it wasn’t interesting (It actually was extremely relevant!) but just because the going to bed late and waking up early catches up on you at some point and thats when it decided to happen.

Now, there were many weird and wonderful events that occurred through out the week. One being that I dropped my phone down the toilet. I know your thinking, its water just put it in rice for a few days and it should be fine. No no no… this was the camp site toilets which means they are filled with chemicals. Plus, I’m pretty sure my phone was down there for a number of days. Highly unlikely that it would work again. To my surprise, some people fetched my phone when they were cleaning out the toilets (yuck!), they disinfected it, cleaned it and gave it back. I now have my phone, sitting in a bowl of rice knowing it is never going to work again but the hope is still there… kind of… maybe not so much. However, my sim card still works so that’s a bonus. Anyway, that was kind of an event of the week. Oh but it got worse, my friend decided to tell Mike Pilivachi this story so in an evening meeting he mentioned it in front of the whole of Soul Survivor. Mike and Andy starting asking me a series of questions and generally rubbing it in that my i Phone has died forever. Pretty sure I was Soul Survivor famous for that…. everyone seemed to know my name ” ahhh your Lisa? The one from Inverness who dropped her phone down the toilet?” …. “Yep. Thats me.”

BUT.. yesterday I opened the door to two of my friends giving me a gift. They gave me a phone and I was speechless. All I could say was ‘Oh my gosh. Oh my gosh. Thank you!’ Such kind, kind people! Wow!

As the week went on we started getting a bit more lively in the main meeting worship. We started dancing and jumping and it was ok because everyone was looking silly. The music was loud and you could feel it in your heart. One of the worship leaders, Beth Croft, has an album coming out so if you haven’t listened to her I recommend you do! I really love her music :) I also bought a song book from the Tool Shed which has hundreds and hundreds of songs that Soul Survivor have played over the years so I can learn loads more on guitar! This is very exciting for me…

Then, on the last day, at the last main meeting, many dressed up. The theme was movie series. It was absolutely hysterical because Mike and Andy dressed up as Legeless and Frodo Baggins with Darth Vada leading worship. I could not listen to the sermon seriously. It was so funny. I didn’t dress up, I like seeing others dress up but I don’t really like it. My friend dressed up as Harry Potter and another as the Joker. Then, there was a ceilidh on the last night. I love ceilidhs! But I wish they had actual Scottish Music (Pretty sure they booked the band for the wrong night) but it was fun all the same! :D Oh and on that last night, someone decided it would be a fabulous idea to play bag pipes at two in the morning. Just as well I have deep sleeps other wise I would have kicked off ;)

I think I’m going to stop this post here. I’ll write another one with stuff that God had been doing through out our week there :)

But here are some photos!!

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Challenging Myself.

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It feels strange, being in my last year of high school. I remember when my brother was in sixth year. I thought he was so old and much like an adult. I don’t feel old.. in fact, because of my height, I feel like I could pass as I first year. Last week, I was buddying for the Primary sevens that are coming to secondary school after the summer and I kid you not, many of them were taller than me. I mean, it is slightly worrying but at the same time I do actually love being small. I just had to laugh because I doubt they realized that I’m actually a sixth year. Anyway, this is my last year of school so I wanted to challenge myself a bit.

This year I chose Higher Modern Studies (because I’m so bad at English so I need some literacy subjects) Intermediate 2 maths (bad idea!), Advanced Higher German (Currently trying to convince Edinburgh College to make an acceptation and let me do open learning because apparently our school don’t have the syllabus for this level) and Higher Music. Maths is just not my thing. I mean really… I am literally incapable. But I’m trying. I will stay at least until I receive my exam results because if I didn’t get a good grade in Higher RMPS then I will re-take that and drop Maths. Anyway, Music. I have missed a year of music and therefore I’m pretty out of practice with the theory side of things so this alone is a challenge for me. However, my music teacher is so so patient and does anything he can to help me. On top of this, I chose acoustic guitar and voice as my two instruments. Acoustic guitar? no problemo. Voice? totally out of my comfort zone. I mean 1, this means singing solo infront of people. 2, this means singing without my guitar. 3, this means being tested on my vocal range. As you can imagine, voice is really testing my confidence. Which I don’t have a lot of, to be honest. But this is part of the reason I chose voice. All I want to do is be able to sing without shaking like a leaf. Its actually extremely annoying and I really want to have more confidence because music is something that I love.

My friend is helping me in music because he is also doing voice and plays piano so we don’t need the teacher all of the time. However, yesterday I went into my own practice room and practiced ‘ A Change In Me’ which is from Beauty and The Beast. My teacher gave me the CD so I could practice and it was going really well singing with no one there. Then my friend came in and asked ‘Are you winning?’ and I replied ‘I am actually’… bad idea.. this meant he wanted to hear it. I always sang really quietly so both the teacher and my friend could barely hear me but yesterday I just had to try harder. I asked him to stand where I couldn’t see him so I would be less nervous. But I sang. And I sang louder and it was so nerve racking. I could hit the high notes but I stopped because I was scared I’d mess up but it was ok,he helped me because he knew I could do them.But that was enough for one day. The thing is, I will get more confident and eventually I’ll be able to sing it all with people watching but that was quite an achievement for one day to be honest haha! I’m just trying to challenge myself and praying that I’ll get more confident because music is something that I love.

above, I linked ‘A Change In Me’ so if your interested you can listen to the song I’m practicing :) But I realized that I think the version I’m doing at school is bit higher so its actually easier to sing with this video. Maybe I’ll ask if I can sing in a little bit of a lower key. Failing that, I can cope with the higher notes if I have to haha!

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